Take these hands, throw them in the river...

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 00:12:18 GMT

WOOHOO I GOT A NEW COMP. AND IT IS SO FUN!! YEAH

woah back up now.

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 22:19:52 GMT

i forgot to talk about GRADUATION!! oh my god it was truly the best night of my life! i had so much fun. while i was sitting there i kept thinking, "what is the big deal, its just graduation." but the after it was over i felt so free. i cant explain it, it was awesome. and now i am finally done with high school. unfortunately i wont ever get to stare at Beau anymore. but thats okay, im sure NAU will be filled with hotguys to stare at.

it was pretty funny at orientation the past few days cuz i saw like 3 people from sabino there. and i talk to this one girl amanda a little bit in high school and ive known her since 7th grade but she was kidna popular and we never really hung out and at orientation i saw her there and she was like saying hi and asking me to sit with her. i just found it funny. cuz i was like one out 3 people she knew there. but it was still a good weekend. i enjoyed and it made me want to be there even more!

cant wait til college!

patience is a virtue that i dont have.

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 22:13:05 GMT

oh my gosh, i love flagstaff. i cannot wait until i move up there! two months is too long!

i feel homesick from there when i was supposed to be homesick from here when im up there. i dont think it will happen.

i cant take it...i want to be there now!!

NAU here i come!

3,2,1!

Wed, 18 May 2005 03:52:03 GMT

oh man, my last day of school is on friday! i cant believe it. i will never go to high school again. yessssssssssss. thursday and friday are finals and tomorrow is a short day so basically today was my last regular day of school. gosh. crazy. now i just gotta get through the summer and i am outta here! yeah!alright thats about it. im really tired. i feel so exhausted and drained... i need sleep. so bye!

what a weekend!

Sun, 15 May 2005 21:27:53 GMT

wow....boy i had an interesting weekend. at first it was fun, then i was really upset one night(ill explain later) then it got a lot better at the end! it was thing at my church called dicpleship now. it was good times. i love samantha, my friend. she is so much fun. we had tons of fun together!

anywho, i was upset for part of the weekend cuz someone i considered a really good friend turns out to hate me! i already knew that she wasnt planning on living with me anymore cuz my sister told me and i wasnt that upset about that but then i found out that she thinks i am this selfish personand how annoying was at prom and how i only took Josh with me to look good and was obsessing over my hair the whole night. ya know, if someone would just tell me when i annoy them it wouldnt bother me as much. it just bugs me when someone completely lies to me and then complains about me. i dont get it! and yah i did just take josh for looks and cuz he was a good guy friend of mine and i thought itd be fun even though it wasnt. so why does she care cuz i had a horrible time anyways so..i dont know. whatever. anyways, it made me realy upset and i was just hurt and i felt so distant from her and i consider her a really good friend, like my best friend that i thought cared about and would be there for me since i really have no one else and then i learned this. so it hurt and i just went to bed early and then i started thinking about abby and how all my close friends are slowly drifting from me and i cried a little. it gave me a head ache. so thats why it was bad. but it got a lot better. so im better now. but i can see it happening again,thats my life for ya.

alrighty now that ive bored everyone with my pity story...im done! k thanx bye.

i am so happy i could scream!

Tue, 10 May 2005 22:38:00 GMT

Holly is coming this summer!! yeah i am so excited! i miss her! and we might go to san diego together! it would be so fun! gosh i am happy. school is out in 10 days. boy i cant wait!! graduation night will be the best night of my life. i dont know if i can handle 10 more days but ill have to. anyways im done i just wanted to say that holly's coming! and i am happy. okay. adios para ahora. i think thats correct spanish. oh well...i have spanish.

whimp no more!

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 04:25:25 GMT

YEAH!! i asked the kid in my classes to prom and he said yes if he can go. he might have a game that day if his team winsa game next week. so im hoping...they loose. ha. but yeah i am excited. hope he can go and it will be fun. okay thats all i wanted to say and my sister is trying to call. so yah i gotta go.
BYE!

long time, no see.

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 05:00:38 GMT

woah. havent been here in forever. well...me and abby never got our tattoos and she moved. and then came back a week later to visit. i saw her for about 2 seconds cuz she was with Sam the whole time and has no time for any other friends.

anyway... prom is coming up. i have a dress and ive made plans BUT i dont have a date. i dont know what to do. i want to ask this one kid in some of my classes but im a whimp. now i know what guys go through everyday. it sucks. i guess we'll see. AND graduation is soooo close! i can see the end...almost! ah cant wait. gosh. so yeah this journal is boring.

im still at subway. cool. i get a raise soon. pretty sweet. im bored.

how now brown cow. unique new york. maybe dont wear a bra next time.

okay enough! i love anchorman. great movie.

blah. im bored once again. goodnight.

TATTOO

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 04:44:37 GMT

so me and abby have decided that before she moves we are going to get matching tattoos to remember each other by. i am so excited. i think it will be so cool. and ya know what i do not see the big deal with tattoos, i think people worry too much about physical appearance other than who the person is. so there...

anyways...a little icon popped up on ym computer when i was ready a live journal comment saying something like a privacy thing. i dont know. but i dont know if that meant this page was blocked by like my dad or something or what but it was weird. but its working so i guess i can still use it.haha duh.

i got new clothes! yeah! today i went bowling with my friend Gabe from work and his brother. it was fun. first we played pool cuz we had to wait to bowl. i did horrible at both games. there are some things i am just not good at. actually theres a lot of things like that.

i watched the grammy's tonight...they were okay. the kanye west performance was awesome. green day sucks...can i please tell you. they won best rock album and played there song american idiot...first of allthey totally suck now that they are all "black hair and eyeliner, PUNKROCK!" crap. and then they sing about the "american idiot" when they probably dont know one thing about politics but sing about it cuz its the cool thing and the PUNK ROCK thing to do is to hate bush. gosh they piss me off. yeah theyre making tons of money with being on the #1 billboard or whatever but that totally defies what they USED to stand for.whatever...make money with your sucky music and get overplayed...i dont care.

okay enough of my complaing cuz i do it soooooo much. thats all i do is complain! i love to do it so much. at least according to some people. alrighty, im out. good night!

PS! after i used quixotic for my mood on one of my past journals, i said, "who knows what quixotic means?" well like the next week it was on my vocabulary list in english class. crazy huh? but i couldnt tell ya what it means. sorry.

i never meant to cause you trouble...

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 00:49:32 GMT

ah...i am bored. and i really wish it was friday. it feels like friday.

today my gov't. class got into this big debate about gay marriage and its so dumb....we all know that we dont agree so why do you even bring it up just to argue. why cant we just agree to disagree. and people started bringing religious debates into it and its so frustrating to hear 10 different people talking loudly about stuff they really dont know anything about. and then this girl Rhiann had a good point by saying that all those poeple bringing up church and religious stuff probably dont even go to church or practice religion but then she was like, "just cuz something is in the Bible doesnt mean its true." and that frustrated me because the whole time i wanted to explain everything the all of them but of course while my hand was raised mr. ireland never called on me and no one would have listened to me anyways. but i was frustrated at the time. it was just really sad.

gosh i am so bored. i cant wait til i move. hopefully there will be more to do. i just want to be out of high school. argh. okay well i guess im done cuz i have nothing to say and this is just becoming boring.

work it out...

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 03:13:30 GMT

okay so today i realized how out of shape i am. oh man was it bad. i went running and i was like hurting in my lungs. normally i just breathe hard but it hurt to breathe. it was bad. the whole time i was thinking how pathetic i am. and when i was running it was fine and it felt good and i liked it but once i stopped...man i could have died right then. it was bad.

anyways, a kid from my work called me tonight at like 5:30 and asked if i wanted to go to a movie and i was like really exauhsted and tired so i said some lame excuse i dont even remember and now i feel really bad. my mom and dad kept giving me a hard time like im some evil witch. i feel really bad.

well....hmm im bored. i dont have much to say. but i think i am gonna go so yeah..........................alright

later on.

moms the word

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 00:17:55 GMT

oh my goodness i could kill my mother right now. not literally, obviously. but she is irritating me like no other!! good god, woman! i cant wait til im living on my own and away from her!!!

TAKE THE QUIZZ!!

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 04:57:30 GMT

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

hello....? anyone there?

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 04:16:39 GMT

well. i really hate how every one of my entries starts out with "i havent written on this in forever"...but thats cuz im never online. i go through sperts. is that how you spell sperts? i dont know. anyway, its friday night at 9 pm and i am at home. ready for bed. haha. i have become an old woman. crap.

wow...i really dont have much to write about but i am so incredibly bored and i am waiting until 9:30 when i can take off my crest white strips...while im waiting, i have a funny but disturbing story.

so there is this really weird kid in my ceramics class, hes like a sophomore, he has facial hair, and thinks he is a ninja...so theres the background info...oh and he has this big crush on me and is very open about it...

SO, yesterday, he doesnt talk to me all period cuz i try to avoid him and avoid making eye contact cuz hes creepy. and at the end of the period he comes up to me and says, "beth, i just wanted to say that your radiant beauty is absolutely compelling, and hi." sick, i was gonna puke and i didnt say anything, ijust stood there and he was like "you could at least say hi back" and again i said nothing until he left my table!! argh...it was creepy and sick. i was quite disturbed.

okay so my mom just told me that she wants me to be careful when i close my store at night cuz a girl in texas was abducted after closing at walmart. okay, subway-walmart, tucson-texas, are there many similarities. im not gonna get abducted...geez. i can handle myself. please. hah. okay well.....i am bored and i think ive written enough. bye.

ps. thanks for the mix steph, i like it a lot.

no promises, no demands...

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 05:50:04 GMT

alrighty..well, whats new? hmm... i had a lovely christmas thanks for asking. prescott was beautiful and cold. i loved it! the fam got a little old and grumpy and irritable but it wasnt bad. anyway, i suppose its great to be back. its not so great that i gotta be back to work tomorrow. i really dont want to go.

but yeah, good holiday season. hmm...... and things with abby are much better. we sorta worked things out, at least i hope we did. thats how i see it, not so sure about how she feels about the situation. but so far so good. man i cannot believe that school starts on monday. i am soooo not ready. this sucks. i love breaks. i dont want to go back. no no no no....argh.

one more semester!! and i am done!!! through with high school! i cannot wait to be out of it. and then off to flagstaff!! omg i cannot wait. i am so anxious to leave! get me outta this town. i wanna live on my own. and move away...from everyone and make alll new friends. no offense to my old friends, i'll keep them too but i cant wait to explore and experience new things, places and people! it is soooo exciting! man. i dont think i can wait til may! gosh.

why..........................?

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 03:42:18 GMT

i am so irritated. i give up. i dont even know what to do anymore.

i am sick of crying over it and i am sick of hearing about it and how i am such a bad friend all this crap about me because its ALL MY FAULT!! whatever. its not worth it.

i just want things to be fine but even if i wanted to change them i cant. cuz shes already found new friends. minnie has already replaced me so why even try. its not fair. why did i have to get arrested. i didnt realize it would make me loose my best friend.

i dont even know what to do anymore. all i ever do is cry. i hate it. i want to be innnocent again, and back in elementary school with abby. i miss it and maybe it is my fault but i dont even know what to do...

it all seems so hopeless. how can you loose a best friend of ten years? god i want that time to be back. i want to be young and happy.

i wont ever be like that again.

i need to face the facts.

it sucks.

burnt soup...mmm

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 20:41:30 GMT

i burnt my tomato soup. didnt mean to but i accidently left the oven on and i started smelling something burning and ya know what. it was my soup. oh well...good thing i already had some.

also. i can not type today. it is really frustrating me.

also. i love my friend holly! she emailed my the day after my bday and sent me a picture of herself and she is so gorgeous. if i can figure out how to put a pic in here i will. shes great. i love her oh so much.

and i got my belly button pierced instead of my nose cuz my dad wanted me to. so yah but it looks cute. it hurt man but it looks good, and i have gotten used to my bangs. i like better now. cuz there not all curled under. they look better straight. anyways...lets see if i can put holly's picture in here...

i cant do it. i dont know how. if anyone does please let me know. thanx

oh my god becky...look at her BUTT!!

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 04:03:42 GMT

omg! so i got my hair cut today and i was so excited...and i guess i am still a little but i dont know. she gave me bangs. and i asked for them but i meant like side bangs i could put behind my ear but still kinda short ya know? well...theyre a little shorter than i had expected. holy moly...i am still not sure how much i like it. it is really and i mean really short.i have never had my hair this short, at least not since i was like 4.

anyways...thats all thats new. OH and in case you dont know my birthday is in sunday dec. 5th!! woohoo. i am sooo oh sooo excited. i am gonna be 18! gosh i cant wait. ive been waiting for this day forever. im gonna be a badass and get my nose pierced and a tattoo....oooh. i might have to wait til i move out tho cuz im sure how my mom would handle a tattoo. good thing she doesnt know about my other one. eek. :/ hmm what else is new'?

NOT MUCH! I think i am done for tonight. i really hope i get used to this hair...man.

PS- i f-ing love the cure. gosh.

PSS- what does quixotic mean? hmm, couldnt tell ya.

happy thanksgiving...

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 02:57:37 GMT

tomorrow is thanksgiving and i am still not sure what im thankful for. i mean there's all the implied things i am thankful for but nothing specific. my sister is in town. yay. holidays bring us all together. i am so happy. in case you couldnt tell. i guess the only good thing about this holiday is that theres no school and i get to go shopping.

i am so bored and i have a feeling that this journal will be boring due to that fact. so im done i suppose.

alright then. gooodbye. happy thanksgiving.

whats up with the sadness?

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:33:36 GMT

i just realized that lately im sad a lot. and i swear its cuz of this imbalancement i am having. its not anything like spiritually so all you judgemental christians, stop before you even think it. im fine with God. i just have an imbalanced hormonal thing going on. but i just got in an argument with my parents. i dont understand them sometimes. i know they are just trying to protect me but i wish they could see i am almost 18 and i have to stick up for myself. i just feel like no ones happy with me. i cant do anything right. the moment i feel like ive balanced my life out and have pleased everyone, my parents have something to say about it. argh. i guess im feeling better now but i cannot wait to go to college and get away from tucson and everyone here. gosh. cant wait to move out and just live my life on my own without someone telling me how to do it or who to hang out with or what i can or cannot do. i am a big girl and i have learned from my mistakes i can handle it, thanks. i dont need anyone to hold my hand and help me do everything. geeeeeeez. okay bye.

i hate fake people!!

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 05:51:06 GMT

why the ef do people have to be so fake. it pisses me off. just be yourself. what does it accomplish to be fake? nothing. just a bunch of hurt friends in my opinion. especially if your obviously fake. i dont get it. how do people like that keep friends?

something is seriously wrong with me. i am NOT on my period and i have been emotionally imbalanced big time, irritable, and fatigued. i dont know whats wrong with me but i still feel like i want to cry and its a completely different day. i feel like crap. and i feel so alone. i dont know why. why do i cry over stupid and petty things. cuz im dumb. i hate myself right now. and im not writing this for poeple to respond and feel sorry for me cuz no one reads this anyways. and i hate it when people want others to feel sorry for them so im not doing that.

god...i need help. someone help my embalancement.

confusion...

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 02:29:15 GMT

man i am feeling crappy today. i was having a great day at school and then it kinda spiraled downhill. i just want to cry and i am not even on my period. i feel i cant please anyone and i am just letting everyone down. and im trying so hard to make everyone happy but i cant. i cant be everything for everyone. and i dont know why this is just now getting to me but it is. i miss how things used to be. i miss my old life. i dont regret anything cuz i have learned from it but i had to lose friends along the way and it just sucks. i know people probably just think that any friendship can happen again if you just hang out with them again. but it cant. we changed so much and i am different and theyre all different and we dont even have anything in common anymore. we cant even ride in a car without awkward silence...the music has to be on so we dont have to talk. and its so sad because this is my bestest best friend of like more than 10 years and we dont have anything in common. its making me cry. i love her sooo much and i miss her. i just wish things could be the way they used to be. and i know they cant and i think thats what hurts the most. gosh...and then my mom i can never make her happy. im always doing something wrong or messing up on something. i just want to make her happy but she cant ever trust me. i dont know whats wrong with me...i need help. i wish life was easier. im such a wimp i dont wanna have to live through this. gosh...i hate being depressed.

aaaaaahh....bored

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 22:57:20 GMT

i am so bored. maybe i will sleep considering i got 5 hours of sleep due to an animal running around on my roof the whole night! i dont even know. dont ask. today was good. i enjoyed it.i spend way too much money. since friday ive spent like 150 bucks. on what you may ask? not much. a shirt, a scarf, a hat, a bra, gasoline, food, moms birthday, who knows what else. but yeah, i have a problem. i cannot believe it is already november. before ya know it it will be christmas. i cant wait. ill be in prescott. it will be beautiful. im excited. PLUS! my birthday is in less then a month! man icant wait. ill be 18!! dec. 5th, in case anyone was wondering. so yeah, im tired and i have nothing else to say so im gonna go take a nap. bye.

GO RED SOX!

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 03:15:51 GMT

I really really want the red sox to win the world series! at first i wanted the astros to win but they didnt make it so now im for the red sox.

my family went to flagstaff this weekend and it was sooo much fun! the beautiful cold snowy weather. i loved it. i think i like northern arizona so much better then i did before this weekend. i probably could go to NAU and actually enjoy it but i am pretty set on ASU. and then i can live with my sister. im excited. cant wait to get outta this city! not that phoenix will be much better than tucson, but it will be different.

so i got this new cd by Bethany Dillon. not only does she have my name but she is soooo good. oh my gosh i love her cd. i highly reccommend. also i really really want the ryan cabrara cd. he is so cute. and i love that song on the radio. on the way down. its so good. gosh. okay well...blogspot is the new livejournal so no one reads this anymore. i could ramble on and on and no one would know but me. hmm...okay well... i believe im done. i probably wont write again for a while so dont miss me.

what?

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 20:06:23 GMT

i am confused about this livejournal...i did something weird. okay i really have nothing to say i am just bored. ok so im done. lion king...i love it. be prepared.